"Birthday"

This has been an emotional week. My sweet Aunt Luana passed away and her funeral was on Tuesday the 19th. It was exactly 5 months to the day that we had Wyatt's funeral. They used the same mortuary as we had for Wyatt so there were so many similarities. It was hard for me because it brought back all those memories of 5 months ago. My heart now goes out to her kids and husband. I know how it feels to have that void in your life that can't be replaced with anything else.

Today, Wyatt would have been 11 months old. It's been a difficult day today for me. Many tears have been shed. I just miss him so much. But it's also been a day filled with many sweet tender mercies. How grateful I am for so many wonderful people in my life that answer the call to comfort me and lift me up.

Next month will be Wyatt's first birthday. It's a day I have been dreading since he passed away. It just doesn't seem right that I'm not going to be planning a party for him and buying gifts for him. Instead I'm going to be buying flowers to put on his grave. It's not at all what I had planned a year ago.

I've been contemplating for some time what to do for his birthday. Thank you, to so many for asking me what I'm going to do and for all the wonderful suggestions. My sweet sister has made up some balloons with Wyatt's name, dates, and the saying " I've gone to prepare a place for you." They are absolutely perfect. Thank you Janese! She made up a lot of them so I wanted to invite any family or friends that would like to release a balloon on his birthday --in his memory. If you are interested please let me know and I will send you some.

Another thing I would like to ask those of you that are willing and able to attend the temple sometime on September 20th in memory of Wyatt. His birthday is on a Sunday so that is why we have chosen the day before his actual birthday. The temple has given me great comfort the past few months . What a blessing it is to know that we might be helping someone on the other side be together with their family forever. I can't think of a greater present to give someone. So those of you that would like to do that in memory of our little boy we would be so appreciative.

I'm also trying to come up with some fun things for my kids because I do want it to be a day of celebration even though my heart is breaking knowing that he won't be physically present for his special day.

There will come a day that I will be planning a wonderful 1st birthday with Wyatt physically present. It will be a grand day and everyone will be invited.