I miss you!

That sums up our day today....we miss him and love him!

Happy Birthday Wyatt!

4 years ago today I looked into those cute little eyes and instantly fell in love with one of my everythings. Little did I know I would have to give him back 5 1/2 short months later. My arms continue to ache wanting so badly to hold him again. It's hard to even describe the feeling.

Today we will be celebrating those amazing 5 1/2 months we had with our little boy. We will celebrate his life and the life we look forward to having with him someday. We have no regrets with the time we had with him. He was spoiled rotten and loved more than anything in this world. Because of that our loss was that much more intense and hard. We miss him and love him. We know we will have him again. I'm sure sometime today or this week we will watch this and remember those months with him. So grateful we have this to remember him by.

Yesterday a huge yellow butterfly flew around our backyard. Haven't seen one of those in months. I know Wyatt was letting me know how much he loves me and that he is very aware of these hard days. So grateful for the tender mercies that I continue to receive.

I know I probably post these same pictures each year but we cherish them like we do all the pictures we have of him. It brings back that wonderful day 4 years ago. One of the happiest days of our life's.

Happy Birthday Wyatt!! We love you and we miss you. Look forward to watching you blow out 4 candles someday. Until then we will continue to devote our lives to those things we know are most important so we can be a forever family.

The proudest big brother in the world!

I look at these pictures and marvel at how much the kids have grown. This WAS one of the happiest days of our families life.

Wyatt's 2nd mom. And she was a great one too!

Big sister...so excited to have someone to play with and show off to.

Birthdays

Can't believe our little girl is now 12 years old. She is such a delight and we feel so grateful that she is in our life. She had a fun day which I will hopefully post about soon. I actually have a whole summer worth of posting to do...sigh. Anyway, I have much to catch up on and not sure when I will do it. Still can't believe she is 12. Where has the time gone?


Wyatt's birthday is approaching too fast and it's been more emotional for me than I was expecting. Miss him sooooo much. The hole in my heart is gaping open right now and the raw emotions are at the surface. I really wish I was planning a 4 year olds birthday party right now instead of trying to figure out what we are going to do without him here. Not easy! I'm sure like in years past that his actual birthday will be a peaceful and good day. It's just these days before that are extra hard.

We were hoping that his bench would be done so we could surprise the kids. Unfortunately, the bench came with the wrong top so they have had to order in a new one, so we get to wait some more. Hopefully, in a couple of weeks we will have it. I get emotional thinking about it and all the people that helped us get it. It will be good to finally have it here. Can't believe he would be 4 years old in 2 days. Oh, how he is missed in our family. We love and miss you buddy!