Wyatt's angel day

Tomorrow is Wyatt's 4th angel day.  I truly can't believe it's been 4 years since I held him in my arms.  Has time healed my heart?  No I still have a huge hole there but time has made everyday living a little easier.  Last week I was on facebook and saw a video from our church about death and on it had some parents talking about their children that had died and how they were grateful for the knowledge of the gospel and how we can be together forever.  I totally agreed with everything that was said.  So grateful for that knowledge and for my Savior and the hope and help he gives me.  My favorite part though was at the end when a father was talking about how yes they are grateful for the gospel but that he still longs everyday to hold his little girl, to give her a hug and to kiss her little forehead.  That is exactly how I feel. I will feel that way the rest of my life.  Time does not take away that longing. Lately I've felt that deep longing more intense and it's been hard. I have added this video to the end of this post.

Yesterday at church we sat behind a little boy that looked a lot like Wyatt.  About the same age as Wyatt before he died.  Does that get any easier?  No, it's still just as hard or harder.  He was chewing on his thumb just the same way as Wyatt did.  His little fingers made my heart ache and I held back the tears.  I miss him, plain and simple I miss him and long to hold him again. 

Today is the start of our spring break.  It's beautiful here with all the blossoms out just like the day we buried our little boy.  We are not going anywhere but staying home for spring break.  We will be releasing butterflies at Wyatt's grave tomorrow as we do each year.  This year we have his bench thanks to so many wonderful friends and family.  We are so grateful for that!  We will spend time as a family enjoying each other and remembering the fun times we had with Wyatt.  I truly look forward to the day when my heart will be complete again, when Wyatt will be in my arms.

Chewing on his thumb.

If you watch this video you will want to go to my sidebar and pause the music.

Quilt

I finally finished the quilt I started last year.  I love how it turned out.  I especially enjoyed learning something new and enjoyed the entire process.  It was a great learning experience and I look forward to making more quilts and getting better and better with each one.  It's going to be a fun little quilt to take on picnics or to use around the house. 

The back of the quilt.

Beach Towels

These just make me excited for the upcoming months.  I saw these beach towels at Costco and fell in love with the colors.  Love it!  Can't wait to use them this summer and look forward to all the memories we will have.

Anniversary

 My sweetheart gave me the most beautiful tulips EVER!  I just love white and red together.  I've been completely spoiled with tulips this month and it's been amazing!  I can't express how much I love having fresh flowers in the house.  It's help me make it through the winter months of January and Febraury.  I have enjoyed them so much.  Part of enjoying them for me is to take pictures of them.  Hence, all the pictures I have posted.  Tulips have got to be one of my absolute favorite flowers.  Love them!

We had a great anniversary spent together going to the home shows, dinner and then to a movie.  I cherish the time I get to spend with my sweetheart.  It was a great day celebrating 16 wonderful years together.

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to my sweet heart. Can't believe it's been 16 years.  Look forward to an eternity more. Love you!

Valentines 2012

 Valentines this year was fun.  I love Pinterest and used it to find some free printables.  I put these candy bars in the kids mailboxes and I also made a basket for my sweetheart of some of his favorite things.  The kids love Gatorade so I thought some red Gatorade would be a fun and different Valentines.  I did our traditional heart waffles for breakfast and made some strawberry milk to add a little pink to our morning. 

After the kids went to school my parents called and wanted to go on a ride.  I always enjoy spending time with them and enjoyed our little excursion.  It really brought back memories of the old days when it was just the 3 of us before I got married.  Love my parents!

D and I went out to lunch and enjoyed some time together.  So grateful he is in my live.  Don't know what I would do without him!  D and I had a surprise b-day party that night for a good friend so we got the kids pizza and they had their own little dinner.  I usually do a nice dinner for Valentines for the family but some years you just have to roll with the punches.  All in all it was a fun and memorable day.

 Breakfast

 My sweetheart gave me some of the most beautiful tulips ever!  I absolutely love them and have enjoyed them so much.  Some people think flowers are a waste of money but for me they are worth every penny.  They bring something special to our home and I love it.  They also bring joy into my daily routine.  So grateful for flowers!

 Love having some on my nightstand.

Tulips

 I know I have written and taken a lot of pictures of flowers...especially of tulips but it truly is something I LOVE and enjoy.  They brighten my day.  My sweetheart gave me some tulips last weekend and I have enjoyed them so much this week.  I have some in my kitchen and some on my nightstand.  It truly amazes me how much happiness these simple flowers can give to me on a daily basis but they do and I'm so grateful for them.  They get me so excited for spring and the up coming months.  If I could afford it I would always have some fresh flowers in my home.   I love having a nice clean kitchen with some fresh flowers by the sink.  Can't get much better than that!  So grateful for the beauties of this earth that we get to enjoy if we take the time to do it.  Thank you sweetheart for bringing such loveliness into our home.  I feel so blessed!  Walmart is a great place to get some cheap flowers...that is where these tulips came from.  I think they are $5 for a bunch of them.  So worth it to me.

 They just make me smile seeing them on my nightstand. Next to book I'm reading "The Happiness Project". (great book by the way)

The simple joys of life.

Valentine Mailboxes

Our mailboxes are out and the love notes have begun.  Love this tradition.  I especially love that we have one for Wyatt.  It does my heart good to be able to write my thoughts and love to my youngest child.  I have no doubt he gets the messages we write to him. 

Good Morning

This is what we woke up to this morning.  Love this time of year and the beautiful sunrises we get to enjoy!

Laundry Room

 A couple of years ago I decided to paint the laundry room blue.  I have loved it so much.  It use to be green...not one of my favorite colors.  I'm not sure what I was thinking when we originally painted that color but I love the new fresh blue look.  I decided to use the windows from the Hatch house to decorate above the cabinets.  I love how they look.  I enjoy having things that have meaning in our home. 

 The $10 chair from DI that I painted and put new fabric on.

Calendar pictures I had D make frames for to put above the washer and dryer.

January

I can't believe how fast January has gone by.  It was a busy month and a good month.  I spent a lot of the month going through closets, drawers, rooms and getting rid of anything we really did not need.  Still have some areas to do like the garage and storage room but it feels good to have things in order.  I love to organize but I think the part I love the most is the end result.  It's almost like a high for me to go into a room I've organized and enjoy the peace and calm I feel in it.  For me it brings a sense of happiness.  I enjoy January for this very fact.  It's always the month I get things in order for the rest of the year.

I've also spent the first part of the month working on my planner and getting my goals set for the year.  It's been good.  I found some ideas online and then put together the things I wanted in mine.  Still have some tweaking to do but I feel like I'm more organized and have everything in one place. Here are a few pictures of my planner.

 This is something I have incorporated in my daily schedule and it's worked so good. I truly feel like I'm on top of the cleaning around the house by doing "my jobs" each day.  It's been great!